When I began tap dancing lessons, about three months ago, I felt as well equipped for it as a bowl of ice cream. Well maybe a little better equipped - I did own a brand new pair of tap shoes, bought the week before class.
I could not hear rhythm correctly (up beat? down beat?), couldn't keep count, couldn't move my feet in time with the beat I couldn't hear right, couldn't follow what the teacher's feet were doing,couldn't remember three steps in a row (when I learned the third one the first one popped out the back of my head, when I learned the fourth step the second popped out the back of my head... I felt like one of those Play-doh machines with tap steps going in my eyes and being extruded out the back of my head, only two steps actually in the machine at any one time), couldn't balance on one leg, and couldn't relax and let things just happen. Actually that last one is where the bowl of ice cream had me beat, regardless of the tap shoes.
In school I was usually a teacher's pet, always on top of the homework, usually the best grades on the tests... it came fairly easy to me. Except "Gym Class" (called PE, these days). There I was one of the two or three worst boys in class. Tap felt disturbingly like gym class, where my intelligence depth was somewhere between shallow and drought. Could I approach tap with a few deep breaths and good humor and try to just enjoy it?
Fortunately I've had a few recent things prepare me for this public display of ineptitude which gave me hope of eventually improving or at least of enjoying it and devil take the opinions of others (and of my incessant inner critic). One was buying a somewhat finicky stick-shift growly beast of a car (an Infiniti G37S coupe - my Anginetti, named for an Italian cookie (though she is no lemon)). I love her and love driving her, but I'm not great at it and that doesn't matter a bit. The other was taking up Tai Chi (my way) and finding that with practice things start to make sense that made NO sense to me when I started.
So I found that with some remedial work, with encouragement from my wife and son (who had gone through the session before me, and were repeating along with me this time), and mostly with a great teacher who is quite aware of how hard it can be for adults to feel lost in something new, I've been gradually getting it.
It's like discovering a new country - or maybe more like finding yourself on the outskirts of Venice when all you've done previously is hear about it. I love it. It makes me feel deliciously younger, playful, gleeful, even. I went to the local lumber yard and bought a sanded plywood sheet to keep under my studio workbench and slide out for an instant tap floor. It's all scuffed up already with all the "dig" steps I've practiced.
I have so so so far to go before I sound anything like a tap dancer - but I see how to get there and I'm not in a hurry. I want to see every window box, smell every rose, and listen carefully to the song of every gondolier I pass on the way into the deeper regions of this Venice.