This was that small piece I started while trying to think of an unpleasant memory - and it might be all I have for AEDM 30 (nope - see below), though I had most of Saturday to paint. I didn't know how to hold a negative mood while painting. I'm not used to painting in that mood, at all.
Today, though, after last night's horrific nightmare, I could do it. Black. That's the color I don't use much - I don't consider it to really be a color (more like all the colors together, or all the color removed...) and I don't see it a lot on earth except at night. I usually feel black is better simulated by a dark color, like Ultramarine, Prussian, or Cobalt Violet. Black was perfect. Pen, ink on a brush, and this house reared up with the light inside and the dark and violent oranges pressing in from the outside. I don't know that this means anything in particular, but I feel "outside looking in - excluded" feelings, and looming cold dark feelings.
Don't read too much into this. I'm a happy guy, mostly.
I think I can paint more like this during this season (winter, low daylight, holiday stress). Maybe that's where the bad stuff should go this winter - like The Picture of Dorian Gray, where all of his wickedness and old age went into the painting in the attic (while he remained beautiful and young), until it overtook him finally in his real life, and he destroyed the painting.
Later this evening I started the layout for Glee 1. Again. I did Glee 2 months ago (a completely different adventure), but it was the second idea, hence the name. Glee 1 has been rolling around in my head for a long time, and trying unsuccessfully to get on paper, but I hadn't felt up to tackling the composition. This is a good start, for what I needed. More drawing to do tomorrow - got to finish the top half and figure out the lighting.